Gratitude diary

As my birthday draws near, I’ve been reflecting on the past year.
I’m grateful that I was able to embrace God’s love in my life.

I used to be someone who didn’t understand the idea of genuine love. Anything outside of family didn’t make sense. I didn’t understand why someone would be nice to me and I always thought it was for their own gain. It took me a year to realise the blessing I was blocking because of my insecurity and ignorance.


What I discovered was how my inability to accept love linked to my relationship with God, I was ashamed, because I realised I always saw him similar to my earthly father and not as God. He was God but, did I know him? Did I see him as a friend? no..

Thanks to some deep reflection and prayers, I decided to change my perspective. As a result of this, I began to see the Holy spirit was my best friend and guide. it took many seasons for me to accept that he is the main friend I need and should be at the centre.

As I took my fellowships more seriously, that is when my heart began to open up to God’s love. This was a big leap for me. I remember times when I would be so overwhelmed by it and cry so much because I couldn’t comprehend what the feeling was, but I knew it broke me and soften my heart.
The crazy thing about it, it was overwhelming but so peaceful. I just felt myself in God’s arms and I felt so safe.

Looking back at that encounter, I began to appreciate and embrace God’s love more and more.

The Bible defines love in so many ways but i love this example:


1 Corinthians 13:4-8 New International Version (NIV)
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

I know many of us are scared and we’ve feared God but, remember he is the Lion and the lamb. Open your hearts to him and ask him to dwell in you.



Prayer:

Lord, I thank you because you are the sovereign God. Show me your love, prove to me that you love me. I open my heart to you, dwell in me. In Jesus name I pray. Amen

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